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Name: melissa or "mo"
Country: United States
State: Tennessee
Metro: Johnson City
Birthday: 8/19/1987
Gender: Female


Interests: God. Guitar. Kids. Summer Camp. Outdoors. Music. Rock Climbing.
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Saturday, February 17, 2007

So I am sitting here in Detroit, scared to death (you know how I am with crowds…) and waiting on my flight to Providence RI (9:00). On my way to find my next terminal, I was looking for food options. I think the only place more expensive for simple foods is on the Ski Slopes and at the Bristol Motor Speedway. It is ridiculous!!!! Anyway- I find this place that says “Internet Cafe” and I get super excited because I have my laptop and wireless internet! I get in and sit down and along comes downer number 1…NO SWEET TEA… ugh- now I remember the only proof people have that I am NOT from the up north, I love sweet tea and they just look at me funny when I ask for it. I get in and order my pink lemonade, when I open my computer to sign online; it comes to this screen that says “first time trail, 5.99 for 15 minuets”.I THINK THE INTERNET IS MORE EXPENSIVE THAN THE FOOD!!! So I am writing this in word processor and I will copy/paste it later. At least everything should be spelled correctly!

 

The flight up here was amazing. The view I had of God’s creation. It makes me think “show off”. It was amazing to have the aerial view of the mountains and lakes. It looked as if the smaller mountains were scattered like water droplets; randomly placed in between houses and farms. And when we got further north, to see how the snow covered everything- nothing was showing through the blanket of snow. I started thinking of that one verse in Isaiah 1:18 – “come now, let us reason together, though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.”

To see how the white snow covered everything- it didn’t matter how much dirt was underneath the snow, there could have been a hill of deep, red clay, and still, the snow covered it and all you saw was white. All that I could think about was my life and how much he has covered me with his love and his mercy and his grace to make me white as snow. And I am, there is not a smear or smudge or smallest little hint of dirt showing on my surface, because God has covered me- completely.

Amen

 

I love it when God illustrates his mysteries and his love to tangible, stubborn people like me. He never ceases to amaze me. Here I am in the middle of a bible study that is on the week about Grace; and God brings up a picture that illustrates his love better than any book or fellow Christian or pastor could describe.

 

I guess being able to actually see proof of God is a blessing in its self. Hebrews 11:1 – “Now Faith is being certain of what we hope for, and sure of what we do not see.”  A Christian’s life is based on Faith, or so we thought. Even though we are supposed to have faith that our God reigns, He gives us little peeks every day of his glory and splender. Talk about a God who knows his people! God knew from the start of creation that we would be a “tangible” kind of people; which is why he made earth so beautiful. Think about it: why would God make earth as extravagant and amazing as he did? He doesn’t live here, he doesn’t walk the earth to admire its beauty; why make it so gorgeous then?



Romans 1:20 “

For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.” What this verse says is that, God, intimately knowing his people, knowing them so well that he knew they couldn’t believe on their own. He knew us so well that he made this world, the mountains we see everyday and the beautiful sunsets the paint our skies by night, he made them all so that “man is without an excuse”. God made everything so complex that his “invisible characteristics” can be seen through his creation. God shows us, sinful humans, his awesome power and glory EVERYDAY. How cool is that? How much does a God have to love his followers to daily give them a glimpse at his Divine Nature and Eternal Power? And when does God bless us with the most beautiful views? The first thing in the morning, the first thing we see and the last think at night, the last thing we see before we go to bed…The Sun Set and the Sun Rise. I think this was designed this exact way by NO mistake. God wanted us to think of Him first thing in the morning, to wake up praising him, and then for him to be the last one on our minds when we go to sleep, as we watch him paint the night sky with colors that only he can create and to fall asleep with him evading our minds and thoughts.

 

It’s like everyday he tells us “I made this so you could know I love you.” It is our own personal “I love you”, and we receive it everyday, without question, without doubt.

 

What a thought- This is how much God wants us to be in a relationship with him. It blows my mind at the lengths that God has gone to in order to obtain our attention- and that are just mankind as a whole! I can think of numerous times where God has gone the extra thousand miles to show me that he loves me. This weekend being one of them, seeing the blanket of snow that covers the dirt so entirely that looking from the outside, all you see is white, pure, holiness.

 

For the longest time I have been struggling with some things that are lingering in my past. I know God has forgiven me and I know that he still loves me, but for some reason I still feel dirty. I still feel like I have some dirt showing around some corners in my life and that possibly God missed a spot…humorous thought I know. After seeing the snow and after seeing Gods “love letter” it has reminded me that I am priceless to Him. Jesus died once for ALL sins- he covered eternity with a thick blanket of white snow. He loved me when he hung there; he had my picture and my life on his mind when the nails were being forcefully driven into his body.  Why would he go through all of that, just to miss a spot? Exactly; he wouldn’t.

 

Amazing Grace, I’m washed White as snow

 

“My chains are gone, I’ve been set free. My God my Savior has ransomed me. And like a flood, his mercy reigns: unending love, amazing grace”—Chris Tomlin

 


Tuesday, February 13, 2007

ugh- i am so fed up with Technology! so i finaly break down and buy an Ipod- i gte home, up load ITUNEs and the windows media player wont up load any songs to itunes because the music files are different.

 

SCREAMS!!!!

 

i hate technology- why did the caveman even start inventing this? it would have saved me alot of trouble if he wouldnt have!


Saturday, February 03, 2007

So I honestly think I am going to be in school FOREVER…     

 

Today in “Intro To Education” an “advisor lady from ETSU came to talk to the class about all of the things that we have to do in order to get into the “teaching school”. Needless to say it was more discouraging than anything. There are tests and tests and money than needs to be paid for these tests and before you can get to the step to pay the money and take the test, you have to have all these other classes and it just seems like a big downward spiral…kind of like the spiral that water goes in when you flush a toilet. Round and round and round and once you feel like you are special and you are moving and actually going somewhere, you get washed away with all of the other crap.

 

I think when my sister retires…I will be graduation college. I have so much I have to do before I can even leave North East; much less think about even starting on that really long list of objectives and hoops I get to jump through. I want to give up. It seems impossible…oh does it ever seem never ending.

 

My mother, being the amazing lady she is, tried to comfort me…”Just think about the pot of Gold at the end of the rainbow.”

Ha-ha…there is no pot of Gold…nope, there is only a hole where that pot used to sit, and once I finally get to the downhill slope of the really ugly rainbow…were talking browns and blacks and those weird nasty colors 9 year olds make when the mix ALL of the paint colors together in Art class…those are the colors in my rainbow…anyway…once I finally get to this downhill, down slope segment, I slide right into the hole where my gold used to be. And right as I get the chance to look up…the spiral of toilet water starts and down the drain I go…being flushed away in all of the other crap.

 

That was a really long analogy.


Saturday, January 27, 2007

Passion 07

Passion was amazing, and i know i have already written alittle about it, but there has been a story in the back of my mind that i have been wanting to write about, but i have never had the free moment to sit down and express my thoughts on it...

One of the nights, a lady who was a missionary in Iraq came to tell us about the "Freedom Center" in Iraq. Apparently a part of Iraq came to her and her orginization and said "we are done with Islam, will you please tell us aout your God. (amazing...i know) they gace her land and allowed her and her staff to live in Iraq for tax free, as a missionary, how could you pass this up? anyway, the were given land in the middle of a college campus , so they decided to build a "Freedom Center". It would have a coffee shop and be a place for Iraq college students to hang out and talk with students from America. what the speaker was trying to do was to get people to go and work at this freedom center for a year.

During her 15 min. speech, i couldnt get this idea off of my mind. then, when we broke for prayer, i was filled with something. i cant cal it excitment, i have been excited before and that wasnt the same. it was like a fire, a passion for the people of Iraq.

"wait a minuet God..." i reasoned with myslef..." this is Iraq...there is war over there. people die in wars! and besides, i dont even want to get into what my mother would say".

After we prayed and the session was dissmissed, i was talking to Valerie about this feeling that i had. For every excues i could think of to throw out for reasons to not consider this, the more i felt that "somthing". The more i said "theres no way!" the more i felt a pull and tug on my heart.

Just to give Val an idea of how well my parents would take the news of me thinking about this i called my mom up and told her what had been going on...i got a "come home" among other things. in other words...i got the "hell no" from my parents, which i exected.

i had never felt like this before. i felt like i was being pulled by something.

when i walked into my small groups, worship had already started.

i heard "all to Jesus i surrender, all to him I freely give. I will ever love and trust him, in his presece daily live".

i hit my knees and began crying. God had been calling me to something, and i was giving him excuses. i was trying to avoid being sent out by God by saying my mommy wouldnt let me. i was ashamed. i had been holding myself back from Gods will because i was scared of the unkown.

i am not going to Iraq. i do not have a degree and the agency requires that. however my call from God to missons was no mistake.

all toJesus i surrender
all to him i freely give
i will ever love and trust him
in his presence daily live

i surrender all
i surrender all
all to the my blessed savior
i surrender all

 

God Moment #2

i am now working at the Coalition for kids, which is amazing! but i was talking to Calvin (a co-worker) who used to work in a detention center in greenville. i was exlaining to him my ministry passion for middleschool and highschool girls. he gave me the name of a Girls home in E-town to call.

i took the number home and set it on my table. i was going to call in a couple of weeks. i was going to give myslef some time to simmer down from school and all of that.

Last wednesday an older gentleman approached me after worship and said "melissa, i have just been given the head role at _______ (name of the SAMEgirls home in E-Town) and i was wondering if you would ever be interested in coming and playing for our girls. it would be an awesome oppritunity for the girls to get to know someone who would be a good role modle for them. here is my card, call me next week"

as i stared at this gentlemen with my jaw wide open and chill bumps on my arms, i explained to him about how i had his number at home on my kitchen table...

God moments...


Tuesday, January 16, 2007

the first day of school and my history teacher is a nut. seriously... a nut case. ugh this will be an interesting semester.



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